Day 8: 08.30.2020
Today I am thankful for siblings, these girls right here will never have to go through what I have. They may drive each other nuts but they have each other, they have that bond. I have three brothers and three sisters but to be honest with you, I could not tell you when most of their birthdays are, what their middle names are, what their favorite colors are, or what is going on in their day to day life. I did not grow up with them, and they were in a different stage of life than I when I was younger. I only saw them when I went to visit my Dad based on my parent's custody schedule. I never understood the 'sibling' relationship, you know what I am talking about, "I can call you a moron but no one else can, I will kick their A**"; the at each other's throats but still there for each other no matter what. I don't have that, with every part of my being, I wish I did. I have wanted nothing more in my life than to be close and included with my siblings. Now that we are older, spread out across the U.S., and living our own lives, it is even harder. I talk to a couple of my siblings, I just wish... Well, I don't know what I wish, so never mind. Maybe that is why I have always wanted a large family; when I was younger I would look at my cousin (my best friend) and see her interactions with her siblings and be in awe, I wanted that so bad. I saw how my siblings had memories together, inside jokes, they understood each other, I always felt like the odd one out. My girls though, they have each other, they have that bond, they have those memories, and that makes my heart soar.
I love each one of my siblings with all my heart and wish nothing but the best for each one of them and their families. I hope, someday I can visit them, for them to meet my children. I have a photo of myself and my siblings from when I was little sitting on our buffet in our home. A while back, my son asked me who all the people in the photo were, I told him and my daughter who was standing next to him, the little girl in the photo was me with my siblings. It broke my heart to hear my older two say, "You have brothers and sisters, I don't believe it". It's life though, all I can do is love them from afar and keep them in my heart.
P.S. Don't mind the messy bedroom, I am outnumbered and no matter how often I tell them to clean their room, it never stays that way and is destroyed in 5 sec. flat. When they were not homeschooled, I could clean while they were away but that does not happen anymore, they are always here. lol
I love each one of my siblings with all my heart and wish nothing but the best for each one of them and their families. I hope, someday I can visit them, for them to meet my children. I have a photo of myself and my siblings from when I was little sitting on our buffet in our home. A while back, my son asked me who all the people in the photo were, I told him and my daughter who was standing next to him, the little girl in the photo was me with my siblings. It broke my heart to hear my older two say, "You have brothers and sisters, I don't believe it". It's life though, all I can do is love them from afar and keep them in my heart.
P.S. Don't mind the messy bedroom, I am outnumbered and no matter how often I tell them to clean their room, it never stays that way and is destroyed in 5 sec. flat. When they were not homeschooled, I could clean while they were away but that does not happen anymore, they are always here. lol
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