DAY 31: 09.22.2020
Today I am thankful for confidence. I never want to be the one in front of the camera, I want to stay behind. I am not the size I want to be, my face has more wrinkles than I remember, I have a scar on my face, and my teeth are crooked. However, my husband, my children, close family, and friends, find me beautiful despite all those things. I need to start seeing what they see, I need to be apart of the memories with my family. So today, after we had gotten our school work done, I soaked in the tub, got myself cleaned up, made myself look halfway decent, and I had my husband take some photos of me on his lunch break. I had everything set up, got the settings together, told him to always get the eye closest to him in focus, and we went from there. I did it, I faced my fears, and now I have four photos of myself. I would have more if I was not so picky, but you know... I agreed to two, that is saying something. I really think this 365 days of thankfulness project is really helping me, especially with my constant battle with depression. I shared these photos on Facebook and one of my friends responded, "I think you look great! Over the years I have watched you struggle with depression, I think this is the most authentic smile I have seen on you in years." You know what, I think she might be right. Of course, I will have a genuine smile in the privacy of my own home, but in a photograph, it was always forced. What do you think? Also, we can't forget to give a quick shout out to Abba, thank you Abba for helping me, I know I can be a real pain sometimes. lol
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