365: Day 47

Day 47: 10.08.2020

    Today I am thankful for making it through another day, I don't know how I did it, but I did. Today was eventful, school was hard, once again we made it through completing everything but I am not really sure how. More yellow jackets got into the house and Tierney got stung, it sucked seeing her in pain and crocodile tears covering her face. I called an exterminator but they never called back. Tierney finished her first-ever chapter book, I am so proud of her, she got the darn thing yesterday and finished it tonight. She is like her mother, when you find a good book you just can't put it down. Abba promised to take her to get the 2nd book in the series as a Father/ Daughter date. EZ is also the photographer today, she wanted to take pictures, she claims she wants to be a fashion model and photographer when she grows up. I kinda wish I had not let her use my camera, have you seen how I look? Ugh, I have a face only a mother could love and somehow my husband. Today was a day that started with next to no sleep, multiple cups of coffee, wild and crazy hair accompanied by dubious amounts of dry shampoo, and hours of teaching, frustration, a bit of yelling, a burnt pot roast, a house that is somewhat picked up for a change, and some crocheting. I am determined to finish Abba's blanket, yes, I know it is big already, no, it is not done yet, the man requested a California King sized blanket, yay... Can you sense the sarcasm there? The worst part is, from far away, you can't even see the intricate design work I have put into this thing.... UGH!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss my husband, I am tired, I need company, friends, something. I am so thankful for Fred's 2nd job, it really is helping us, but I am tired. I know I will get through this and at some point, all of this will seem old hat, but maybe I need a few more cups a coffee a day before I can get to that point. I feel bad, I had promised the kids we would walk to the park today, we got so busy with school and life, that by the time I remembered, it was dark out. I wish I was Super Mom, I wish I knew a Super Mom who could tell me what I am doing wrong and how to not get frustrated, keep the house clean, have my children spotless, not burn dinner, and to make Tabitha understand, to make things click for her... I think I need some sleep, night... I... I don't know what I am trying to say, I'm tired, I am really tired.